Sunday, April 26, 2009
Mind is totally screwed....IT TOTALLY SUCKS TO BE ME
I donno man, it has just been a journey from one end to the other end of the world...hypothetically speaking..... I have been imagining a lot of stuffs which are too good or extremely bad to be true....I donno what i think, how some random wandering thoughts just fill my head all of a sudden and when it does enter the damn thing refuses to leave.....It totally drills my mind to the core and it eventually subsides after sometime when i have thought too much about it and still have no answer or the answer that i have is not convincing enough...but still it eventually subsides for a moment to just show that its so fucked up damn mind screwing that always leaves me wondering about the thoughts all over again....i wish i get the answers to possible questions in the future so that i don`t have to go through all of the torture all over again.....The inevitable feeling that i have at the end of it all......IT TOTALLY SUCKS TO BE ME
Saturday, April 25, 2009
Friday, April 17, 2009
Wish to find what lies beyond DEATH
An incident which never happened last week has set mind tingling in a dizzy.What if.....These thoughts just keep me occupied for the time that i might end up thinkin that i wish that it would happen for a small time.I want to know what lies on the other side, what is it that still is unknown, what is it that is out there.DEATH is inevitable ,someday somehow it will eventually get to me whether i like it or not.But before that i have this strange want inside that maybe for 5 minutes i wish i could die, i really really do ...if the time could be stretched it is not a problem unless i know i return back, coz there are a lot of things undone here and i don`t intend to leave it that way.I really wish that there could something that happens that would take this life away from from for just a few minutes.....i can only imagine what i might find on the other side, maybe visit a few lost souls, the curiousity that how would your loved ones react to it, maybe find out some truth behind what death actually is, find out if actually there is something call HEAVEN or HELL coz if either one of them is there for me..most probably HELL, then the other one should definitely be there....if there is neither of them, then i guess hell is here, heaven is here, n oderwise....
Monday, April 13, 2009
What if i were there....
Yesterday ...it was a Sunday, n just like any other Sunday woke up without actually wanting to get up.After too many deliberations and much persuasion's from myself woke up with a pain on my lower back n hell like pain on my neck.It was one of those days when the feeling of having the pain actually was very satisfying coz of the way i got it...headbanging at UTSAV, my passion for the last 6 years n still continues to be great going.But, that i not what am writing this blog for.....
After waking up i did what i usually do early in the morning , read the newspaper, starting from the sports column..but this time something on the front page caught my attention...No it was not any gossip, or anything related to politics or sport, it was a tragic story of a guy from Chennai who had come to Bangalore for an adventurous event but ended up losing his life over that.May his soul rest in peace.
Another reason why it caught my attention was the fact that i actually wanted to go there to do the bungee jump,fortunately/unfortunately my college fest was also held at the same time so i did not go to that event.I guess it just was not my time.But, reading this in the papers just intrigues me...WHAT IF I WERE THERE...i mean really, the thought is kind of freaky but yet, what if i were there.I could either be one of the mute spectators of the incident or actually have been the victim of the rather unfortunate incident. This thought just in itself provoked a lot of thoughts in itself....
what if i were the one in there,
what if i were the one on the other end of the rope,
what if it were my legs hanging by those ropes,
what if i were the one who had the fall,
what if i were the one who had died in there....WHAT IF, WHAT IF....
it was just a thought but a thought which did come though....i guess there is still time for me, it was just like one of those incidents where death just whizzed past by me and i was still standing there, lucky, fortunate to live today to die another day....LIFE ROCKS :)
After waking up i did what i usually do early in the morning , read the newspaper, starting from the sports column..but this time something on the front page caught my attention...No it was not any gossip, or anything related to politics or sport, it was a tragic story of a guy from Chennai who had come to Bangalore for an adventurous event but ended up losing his life over that.May his soul rest in peace.
Another reason why it caught my attention was the fact that i actually wanted to go there to do the bungee jump,fortunately/unfortunately my college fest was also held at the same time so i did not go to that event.I guess it just was not my time.But, reading this in the papers just intrigues me...WHAT IF I WERE THERE...i mean really, the thought is kind of freaky but yet, what if i were there.I could either be one of the mute spectators of the incident or actually have been the victim of the rather unfortunate incident. This thought just in itself provoked a lot of thoughts in itself....
what if i were the one in there,
what if i were the one on the other end of the rope,
what if it were my legs hanging by those ropes,
what if i were the one who had the fall,
what if i were the one who had died in there....WHAT IF, WHAT IF....
it was just a thought but a thought which did come though....i guess there is still time for me, it was just like one of those incidents where death just whizzed past by me and i was still standing there, lucky, fortunate to live today to die another day....LIFE ROCKS :)
Thursday, April 9, 2009
Dazed, confused ,bemused....n what not
Sometimes when the things happening around start to make little sense to you as to why it is happening, that is when the mind which when doing nothing starts to think otherwise.Some thoughts should never enter the mind coz when they do it takes a hell lot of time for them to leave it.
How long does it take for a person to do things that he normally is not used to doing or has never done or never thought he will do.What i am referring to here is ---u never know to what level someone might take a few things in his stride unless actually pushed far so much that it becomes intolerable to actually take it any further.There have been a few things that has come to realisation for the past few weeks and it became much clearer over the last few days.U might expect a lot of things from friends around, being jolly,cheer full, mad,..everything that possibly makes it worth the while to spend time around them. The only thing that does not make the cut here, friends not living up to your expectations of trust n respect.People very seldom realise the value of these coz the fact of the matter is that with friends " EVERYTHING IS TAKEN FOR GRANTED"..more often than not, this does tend to be true and to a very large extent is very cool ,but even the sea`s around the world have limits which when crossed raise a tsunami effect.That is what will happen with the human mind n heart.It will take things to itself as long as long it does not cross the limits.Once crossed it shells out effects never felt before.........it just goes according a phrase that i came up some time ago.........Transcripts from a broken heart, tortured soul and a battered mind always tell a sad story n it is something that should be avoided in the making at all costs.
How long does it take for a person to do things that he normally is not used to doing or has never done or never thought he will do.What i am referring to here is ---u never know to what level someone might take a few things in his stride unless actually pushed far so much that it becomes intolerable to actually take it any further.There have been a few things that has come to realisation for the past few weeks and it became much clearer over the last few days.U might expect a lot of things from friends around, being jolly,cheer full, mad,..everything that possibly makes it worth the while to spend time around them. The only thing that does not make the cut here, friends not living up to your expectations of trust n respect.People very seldom realise the value of these coz the fact of the matter is that with friends " EVERYTHING IS TAKEN FOR GRANTED"..more often than not, this does tend to be true and to a very large extent is very cool ,but even the sea`s around the world have limits which when crossed raise a tsunami effect.That is what will happen with the human mind n heart.It will take things to itself as long as long it does not cross the limits.Once crossed it shells out effects never felt before.........it just goes according a phrase that i came up some time ago.........Transcripts from a broken heart, tortured soul and a battered mind always tell a sad story n it is something that should be avoided in the making at all costs.
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