oh...mai gaaaad

I cant believe my eyes....i have not blogged for many many months now....dr used to b a time when i just used to type in random...can`t believe how busy[Yeah rite] i am....dis years resolution...to fill this page as often as i can...Honest

Look around....

I look around
i see a million people cross my path...i see none next to me
i see people walking hand in hand together....i see none holding mine
i see none with me..
i see none for me..
No one to wait for long hours to turn up...
No one to pamper with gifts...
No one to tag along wherever i go...
No one to to love like never before...

And then again...a thought rises up...........
There might not be anyone next to me, with me, just for me for the moment......
But am privileged enough to have Gem of pals spread over who are more precious than what i want....That puts a smile, a smile saying that u have whatever you need right here with you...so don`t curse yourself for someone who is not with you, but be blessed for all the people who are with you....have been through your good times and worst times and will continue to be so.....My friends ROCK....well so do I :-P
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Till then
It just goes to say that the elusive search still continues for that mysterious one....

Is it gud or bad

I never ever EVVVVERRRR thought some ppl can actually be like me in a lot of ways....Jus goes to say that am not d only crazy idiot in this planet....it feels soooo NICEEEEE.....but din feel so good to actually talk to someone whoz kind of a mirror image in those lot of ways...hehe...DONNO IF TIS GOOD OR BAD....

IRONY

IRONY...it is definitely the word to describe how stuffs go on around. Never even in the faintest of imaginations did i realize that life could begin to get filled up with so much of irony. I mean, the feeling is kinda mind blowing in a way coz really after all of what has happened around, there is this smile that just creeps up on my face with a tinge of not knowing what is exactly going on around. I had this one thought at the back of my head that i will not go n do such and such a thing....jus fearing an experience that did not want to happen. Then i came at crossroads where i had to think about what might be coming my way, is it something that i really want, something that i really need, something that i should be apprehensive about getting.....a lot of such questions came crawling up my mind. But, it was a nice feeling to go along with. Then, it happened all of my questions were answered....the moment i had the answer, a sheepish smile jus lept on me, hiding behind it a possible sorrow but filling it eventually with a moment of being contented knowing that possible worries have been dispelled.....
at the end of it all, i am kinda satisfied to being in the position that i am now and things should just begin to fall in place and all should be well...LIFE ROCKS, but it is one helluva SHITTY place to be in....tis like i just screwed myself with last hope unscrewing myself just having slipped out of the hands....no matter how ironical it might get, things will just keep moving on.

whenever....

Whenever i think of u, i wish the times freeze...Coz i always want to think of u
Whenever i walk , i wish u are my shadow...Coz i always want u to b wid me
Whenever i see, wish ur standing before me...Coz i u r d only one i wanna c
Whenever i dream, i wish u r in my dreams...Coz i don wanna dream of anybody else
Whenever i need to woken, i wish u wake me up...Coz i wanna start my day looking at u
Whenever i laugh, i wish u laugh with me...Coz i wanna share my happiness wid u
For all that i have wished about u ...I wish u wish the same about me

But,
Whenever i cry, i wish u don`t see me cry...Coz i don`t want u to see my sorrows......

The MANY mistakes of my life

I really have never been a reader of books....all my life the only books that have kept me interested are comic books which i have thoroughly enjoyed reading as a kid...still do.Being a technical being had to dig through a few study related books every now and then, but all those were always just for the heck of reading, not interesting really.....This past week i totally surprised myself by completly reading a book"THE 3 MISTAKES OF MY LIFE".i first saw that somewhere around last year [november maybe] and just the thought of reading a book was so repulsive that i did never go thru reading even the intro part of it that time around.Well, times have changed i guess coz i did manage to read thru the whole novel n the funny part was that i found it interesting enough to keep me going through it.something that not many novels that i have had the thought of reading could make me do.NICE story tho...Readin it along made me realise that i just did THE FIRST[nth maybe] MISTAKE OF MY LIFE....coz right there is this unusual urge to read the other books by chethan bhagat....this book had kept me so engrossed that i actually forgot the whole plot that i had read in the beginning....he sez that tis based on a true life incidents, the incidents were true though, but were the characters in it also true....if they are then i really am looking forward to the batting prodigy that was mentioned in it...cannot wait to meet the next icon of INDIAN cricket....hard to beleive it tho....
After this book, i guess there are many more mistakes to be made, more books to be read....more time to be killed .....and yes more n more blogs to write :-)

Is this what we are....

Yesterday Neha sent me over a mail, a forward which said about the cruelty being done on innocent animals.The first time i saw the subject it said : PLEASE SIGN this petition. Usually when someone has a look at such a subject, it is like, another one of those stupid forwards trying to do something better for the world, or someone is missing, or someone needs help...that really was my first impression when i saw the mail. Just decided to go through it once before probably deleting it.So i started to dig through it, it was being forwarded all over the world i guess coz i saw names of countries from all over the world in that.

I BEG OF YOU NOT TO WATCH THE VIDEO IF YOU ARE A FAINT HEARTED PERSON....IT IS SOMETHING THAT WILL HAUNT YOUR MEMORIES FOR SOMETIME AT LEAST...

Then i read what it actually said, and this is what was exactly there in the mail at the bottom of the page:

Please sign, don't watch video its just too painful but we have to try
and stop this brutality. It's about animal rights. But if you must
watch there is a link below.

I explain the process below:
With a hidden camera, animals were filmed being
SKINNED ALIVE!!! They say it's done to get a more
perfect ''cut''.afterwards the carcasses
are tossed into a pile, still alive, and
for up to 10 minutes you can see their hearts still
beating, in agony, their eyes still blinking, and the puppies little
paws still shaking.
There was one pup, that still lifted his head and
gazed at the camera with bloodied eyes . If
you don't care to see the video, please sign and
forward to your friends:
this monstrosity has to be stopped, we have to act!!
Please scroll down and add your signature to the petition and send to
everyone in your address book. Do not click on the link, you have been warned
that it is too gruesome to watch and something needs to done to stop it...
Thanks for your support

There is no need to see the video, but if you must, be aware,
it's horrible. The following video is of excruciating violence. It's
painful silence affects us all deeply. If we don't protect animals from
this type of brutality, we become accomplices
http://www.peta.org/feat/ChineseFurFarms/index.asp


Reading it i felt a little pinch on my heart but it did not trigger any kind of hard thought, so i clicked on the link provided to actually watch it....I haven ever been much of very emotional person who can be moved by just reading something, very few things that i have read around have actually moved me to the point that i felt ashamed and a sense of disgust has filled inside.
I have watched some very barbaric clips, some really gross videos and pics and some really pathetic ones at that, but very few come remotely close to what i have seen here.....it has been the most pathetic experience that i have ever had. To be very frank, after watching this video, i have started to really hate the fact that i am a human and such barbaric act of utmost disgust is being performed by a fellow human.
The video was so horrible that for the first time in my life i actually did not watch it completely....jus closed to the window to a point where i just could not take it anymore...
In My short life i have seen a lot of things that speak of cruelty which is of an extreme in itself...i have watched videos of somebody`s head being chopped off, pics of cannibalism, some extreme pictures of road accidents and a real lot of things which make me put my head down in shame....but most of the times i myself have provided some kind of a justification to that particular act and just have just moved on only to find that there are far more worse realities up front.

I mean really, how can any person be so cold hearted, so cruel, so barbaric, so bloody cheap that can make someone else put their head down in disgust of have actually been a spectator of such a fiendish behavior.Skinning an animal alive is something that have never heard of, let alone having to look at.....and why is this being done, so that some very pathetic people around the world can keep it as a decorative item in their closet.How low can anybody get...the manner in which the poor animal was being beaten up while being skinned is an image that will haunt me for many more days to come.I can not even imagine the plight of animals all round the world that are being slaughtered right now for some or the other reason. with all of this happening and having to remain a mute spectator with very little that i can actually do to help is something that makes me curse myself.
All i could do for now was forward the mail over....someday, somewhr i hope to do something better .....

BOTTOM LINE: LIFE IN WHATEVER FORM, IF TAKEN FOR SPORT OR FUN IS AN UTMOST ACT OF DISGRACE....DO THINK IT OVER AGAIN